I have been a widow for 6 years. I can't believe it has been that long. I used to think that I would wake up one morning and realize it had all been a bad dream. But the nightmare continues.
So many things have changed over the past 6 years. Personal things like a new grandson in the family and my mother's passing. World events of course. Favorite restaurants closing. New aches and pains. All the stuff that happens over time.
Some things, however, will never change. The rage inside me that asks why Lane and never knowing the answer. The feeling that I am being punished for something I did or didn't do. The emptiness that only other widows understand.
I have learned along the way that life without your best friend is pretty boring. That is not going to change either. I know I will never enjoy doing "Lane's jobs" around the house. It still breaks my heart that I will never see his smile or hear his voice.
After 6 years you learn to accept these "nevers" as a part of your new life. Do I like it? No, I hate it but it is what it is.
What will never change for you?