These long holiday weekends can lead to feelings of sadness, depression even anxiety. Most of us widows hate them. But this Memorial Day I was angry.
I was angry at Lane because I had to change the propane tank on the grill. I was angry at my Mom for dying (at 94) and leaving me parent-less. I was angry at my sister-in-law who always waits for me to call her ("I'd call but I don't want to bother you"). I was angry at my friend in California who has been flying under the radar for months now. I could go on because everything and everyone made me angry.
But I guess most of all I was angry with myself. Angry that I am not more social. Angry that after 6 years I still imagine Lane walking through the front door. And angry that I get angry for being emotional.
Well it's Tuesday morning. Weekend is over and so is my anger. Have a good week.
What makes you angry?