All weekend I felt completely out of whack. My back hurt. I felt tired all the time. Couldn't find a comfortable spot in bed. All those little annoying things that make you feel not quite right. Just out of whack.
Lane could always tell when I was out of whack. He said I made a weird face that was somewhere between squinting and smiling. He usually could laugh me out of it pretty quickly by either getting me to laugh at myself or telling me I was just getting old which made me mad. In either case I seemed to physically react in a way that got me back into alignment.
It's tough not to have anyone to get your through those out of whack moments. Someone who knows where to draw the line between concern and enabling. Lane was a master at it. He worried about me when he should and didn’t overdue the tea and sympathy when it was unnecessary.
Not having him around makes the everyday aches and pains seem much intense. Some days I go from out of whack to just plain whacky. Coping alone is not easy.
How do you cope when you are out of whack?