I have always wondered why Lane died on my birthday. Was there an explanation? Was it his way of making sure I didn't forget him? Was it payback for every mistake I have ever made in my life? Maybe his dying on March 18th was his way of being considerate. I wouldn't be celebrating that day anymore so maybe his intention was to keep me from realizing I was getting older. It's true I no longer celebrate my birthday. Untrue that I haven't gotten older.
There never seems to be a good explanation when something you can't understands happens. Why do some mean, unscrupulous people live to be very old? Why do some women have children and others can't? Is there an explanation when someone takes care of him/herself and still gets cancer or heart disease?
Some people think that God has plan for all of us. Or could it be just luck or fate that takes over? I really don't know.
Why did Lane have to die? I don't think there is an explanation that would help me miss him less or not feel cheated.
I guess a lot things in life can't be explained. We just have to learn to live with the hand we are dealt.
Do you have any explanations?