This is my fifth holiday season as a widow. Is it easier than the first couple of years? Definitely. I don't feel the same sense of desperation. I know I won't die without him. I feel much more in control of my feelings and how I deal with things. Life has gone on and I have gone on with it. I guess that's the good news.
With that said, I still don't feel real joy like I once did. Acceptance has taken over where optimism used to reside.
I believe that being alone does get easier in time. Emotions aren't as raw. You get tougher. Many widows are able to build new, happy lives again. Others muddle through the best they can. And for many of us, the jury is still out. We aren't sure where we are headed but we keep trying to move forward. Going back is not an option for any of us.
Have a happy and safe holiday season. I am taking a couple of weeks off but will return after the New Year. In the meantime I am going to post some of my favorite entries.
Thank you all for coming to this blog, supporting me and others with your comments, thoughts and prayers.