After a hectic few weeks at work I am looking forward to enjoying my annual cousins weekend. I have 2 female cousins who I am very close to and for the last couple of years we do a "girls" (we haven't been girls in many decades) weekend. So I leave tomorrow for a sunny beach front condo.
One of my cousins is happily married with great kids and a good career. She is excited about life and is fun to be with. My other cousin has a not so good marriage, a part time job she hates and not much else. She had all the potential but made some bad choices that keep her from being happy.
I look forward to this long weekend every year. I am going to have fun and be fun putting all my sad thoughts away for a couple of days. I used to think I was betraying Lane if I laughed a lot or enjoyed myself too much. It sounds kind of silly when I say it aloud but I did feel guilty when I had fun or let myself act silly. Sometimes I still do.
Does having a good time ever make you feel guilty?