I think one of the worst things about being a widow is not being able to share life's milestones with your husband. Next week I turn 65. I'm not a big birthday person but 65 is a milestone that I thought I would be sharing with Lane. I know we would have taken a trip or gone out for a fancy dinner.
Over the past 8 years Lane has missed so many milestones. The birth of a grandson. Our daughter earning a doctorate degree. Our son starting an internet company of his own. Not to mention the Bears going to the Super Bowl in 2007 and the election of a black man as president. So many things that Lane has missed out on. So many things he would have enjoyed.
Then there is the laundry list of negative milestones. The loss of my mother, my health issues, the recession, etc. His reassurance and composure would have made all of these milestones easier to deal with.
After 8 years, it is still unsettling that Lane isn't here to share life's milestones with. I always say that as the years go by you get used to being alone. You adjust to the life you now have. What other choice is there?
But then some milestone comes along and kicks you the butt reminding you that life without your husband to share it with is a pretty lonely life.
What milestones has your husband missed out on?