Monday, November 16, 2015

Bermuda Triangle

Every year I post this entry regarding the holidays.  While it is supposed to be a joyous time of the year for widows it can be a downer.  We know we should be thankful for our family and friends but oftentimes we feel exceptionally lonely and depressed.  So for what it's worth, welcome to the Bermuda Triangle.

We are all about to enter the Bermuda Triangle -- Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's Eve. Any of these holidays can bring you down but all three back to back will rock any ship.

On my maiden voyage the seas were pretty rough.  I used to love having Thanksgiving dinner at my house.  But there was no way that first year  I could have handled it.  So I went to my cousin's and it was awful.  Oh not the party or the people but being there without Lane was really difficult. My daughters and I left before dessert.

On Christmas Eve we went out to dinner.  Weird for us but at the time it seemed like a good idea.  On Christmas Day we went to the movies.

I was alone on New Year's Eve.  I made a fancy dinner like I did every year. But nothing seemed right.  The meal tasted bad and the wine even worse.  Without Lane to share it with bringing in the New Year was meaningless and even painful.

On New Year's Day I felt better.  I had made it through the triangle. But here we are again.  Same holidays.  Same loneliness.  Yes, my ship is a little more seaworthy now so the voyage isn't quite as rough.  But holidays without Lane are still nothing to celebrate.

How are you going to get through the holidays?