Sorry I have been out of touch for a couple of weeks. I was helping my daughter out and had some other issues to take care. Time just got away from me.
I realized something strange these past weeks. I spend a lot of my time just hanging in there. Do you ever feel that because you are basically on your own your goal is to just get by each day? Get through this day and then on to the next? No goals. No hopes or dreams anymore. That sounds so sad when I see it on paper but it is a pretty accurate statement.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a doormat and I won't go or do anything I don't want to do. It's just that I feel like I spend most of my time going through the motions, treading water or waiting for something to happen.
Do all widows who had a "get old together plan" with their husbands now feel like are just hanging in there? Waiting for the other shoe to drop?